Listening to: The sound of the ocean.
Reading: As I type.
Watching: The words fall onto the page.
Playing: The final harp strings.
Eating: The last one.
Drinking: it all in.
This place, and the wonderful people, personalities, art styles, and heartfelt sharing of expressed life has been there for me when I needed something, anything to continue on. Now that life is no longer without form and path for me, without depression, regrets, and or unforgiveness - I feel I must leave with peace, and I believe I have found it. I don't know when my time is, but I know it is near--as near as time permits it to be.
I thought I should speak from the heart, and thank those that have taught me things I couldn't even comprehend or understand about my own being... those that I have shared with here on this very place on the web, a place that has been more home to me than anything or anyone for many many years. So I leave you all with this last journal entry, and I will no longer sign onto deviantART--ever, again. Those that are still expressing themselves, thank you for taking the time to hear me, thank you for being there to accept me. Hopefully this will be accepted as my last expressive gift for all deviants, that take chances and are not afraid to express their 'true selves'; the amazing individuals, beings, and intellectuals and most of all--Artists, and friends that I will miss as I approach the beginning of my true path... the end of my road as an artist, or being of expression for this one place--as I approach the entire fabric of peace, love and harmony itself as I patiently walk towards. I must come out and say it now... that I am no longer suffering, things are finally better and I have come to the light, warmth and comfort of the situation I "had" with my...hereditary issues that were expressed last time I wrote to anyone that would listen. Know this... I am now simply moving on with what is left of my life, to pursue life in the path I was meant for; I Am, I Am.
As those who know me-know this; I am a very deep individual. When I feel it necessary, I share bursts of myself in full view, opening myself up to everyone through art, and my idea and acceptance of what I believe to be, my real and true self... expression. Those that have gotten to know me, care for me, and have been there to assist me through the hard times, as well as the wonderful times when I needed and most of all when I didn't need, will appreciate this if nothing at all--that what you see beyond this point, is my view of how I wish the world could be, for everyone's peace. Please accept this gift of knowledge, respect, and honesty as real and true spirituality as I have begun to believe and understand as so (nothing to do with religion), from Jacque Fresco, into my heart and now brought to you in my words, as I see fit to share... as my last words:
We 'literally' cannot live the way we have been since. If we do not remove the profit system and replace it with a resource based system built with the inclusion of nature, and life, true spirituality and love--we will not survive as Man--but we will slowly, and painfully continue destroying each other, until nothing is left--not even the pain. Until the entire world accepts the principal, and finally understands what the only intelligent plan for peace is actually about, and moves toward it... we will ultimately, and utterly suffer the most dire, and most destructive and most truest hold to the opposite of peace that we can't even wake up for a half a second to even get a glimpse of, let alone understand it before the "unbelievable".
Sincerely--with love and blessings-Thank you all, so much.
Russ - Believer in the truth of The Venus Project: www.thevenusproject.com